Personal

For the past 2 months, I have been shooting exclusively for myself.   Packing and preparing to move, and moving across the county (4 states away) and all the other big changes that have come to us lately.  Well I am glad I gave myself this time.  I dont think I could give my all into my work, with all that has been going on in my life.  As hard as I am on myself, not giving my all is just not acceptable.

However, I am still shooting.  Just for more personal reasons.  I am shooting just for the pure joy of nature.  I have always been a nature lover.  I have always loved nature photography.  And I have been taking time to just do nature photos.  Landscapes, birds, wildlife, plants and flowers.  Sometimes I think this type of photography is far more difficult than portrait work.  Animals dont sit still.  They run from you, not come toward you.  They move fast, and sometimes hide in dark places.  You really have to think about what your doing, and sometimes you miss a fantastic shot.

Have you ever chased down a grasshopper, only to have his hide behind a leaf?  I have, and its the cutest thing I have seen.  I can almost hear in a tiny buggy voice "you cant see me".

I have also used my daughter as a test subject to try out new ideas.  Shes 6, and loves being beautiful and playing dress up.  So some of these ideas I have in mind are right up her alley.  Shes been my model for some of my head pieces and fascinators.  We have done shoots of her, just because she was bored and asked me to photograph her, while she does random silly things.

Playing in the rain (spur of the moment, her idea photo shoot), Modeling my head pieces, and a special bridal shoot, in mommys gown.  I love playing with new ideas, but its really about spending time with her.  Shes such a special kid, and shes growing up way too fast.  I miss her being little.  And I really wish I had chosen this path long ago.  When she was a baby, I was a walmart and target portrait type mom.  Oh if i only knew then, what I know now.

Alot of these pictures are so personal to me, that I have a hard time uploading them.  I'm not sure, if its because I feel like no one will want to see them, or if there is some other reason.  Maybe I dont want to overload people with my personal life.  But, I decided, like it or not, I will start uploading alot more of these photos.  I want to share with everyone, just how deeply this passion of photography goes.  How deeply embedded into my heart, my passion goes.  This is my art.